Now why would I do that?

This is my baby, I'm not going to kill it. Some people are here are very strange...besides, I hardly think Tony would be happy if I murdered our child, don't you think?

I'm pregnant.

I've been having quite peculiar dreams lately. Normally they wouldn't matter but when I puke blood in my nightmares and then do it in real life once I wake up, I gather that maybe something is not right. I don't know. He tells me that I'm alright and I believe Him. He is taking care of me after all. But this constant nausea and the nightmares that are reoccurring and always the same now...well, I have to suspect that something is wrong, right?

Have you ever had a feeling that something about you has changed but you don't know what? I feel sick all the time and sometimes when I throw up, I throw up blood. I don't think that's healthy, haha.

I have to take naps more because when I stay up too long my head starts to hurt and that's just not very fun to deal with. But everything is going to be okay because he told me so. He's going to make everything okay and make all my hurt and troubles go away.

I wonder what happened during those two months I was gone?

Today is a beautiful day

isn't it?

I think so. It's lovely. How is everyone else doing?

Hush little baby don't you cry

Mama's gonna sing you a lullaby

And if that lullaby don't work

Mama's gonna bring Him back with her,

And if He doesn't get you back...

Well

That shouldn't be a problem.

hah

hah

ow my head