Kay's house a few days ago. Sorry I didn't update, things were just very emotional and I didn't honestly feel like posting. Kay, when you read this, good luck. I just saw the update about Maduin and, well, I hope this doesn't bring you more trouble. I want you safe, or as safe as you can be.
As for Tony and I, we're traveling again, never staying in one spot for more than a day, two at the max. He said that Ava might need us to take her to Celie, whom I've never even met but according to him they're good friends. I feel like we aren't getting anywhere. Tony is managing to remember what happened to him in his past, but nothing he's recalled will help us get to Cynthia.
It sounds mean, but it's true.
I just want my daughter back, and I can't even find one measly lead to where she may be. Somehow Robert can find us, with Tony covering our tracks for the most part, but I can't even locate my own child. It's agonizing and everyday that passes I feel like we lose our chance to get her back more and more.
I'm trying to find anything on my Grandmother, but at this point I'm starting to think it was a slip of the tongue on Tony's mothers part, and that I may never find her. Perhaps I'm not meant to do anything? Maybe I'm always going to be unable to help anyone? I'll always be known as that useless mother who lost everything because she can't even think about fighting proxies without tearing up and shaking in fear.
I can't do this. I'm not good at this running thing and I'm even worse at taking care of my family. Tony would be better off without me- if it weren't for me he wouldn't be blind in one eye and remembering such painful things. I don't know what to do anymore.
Take care of yourselves.