Monday, April 11, 2011

It's odd

Mrs. Delmont and I were preparing dinner together a little while ago and chatting about trivial things. I was mostly talking about suspicious activity, but she kept mentioning stories from "back in her day". They consisted of Tony when he was a little boy usually, but sometimes she brought of tales from when she was a child, or a teenager, or adult and marrying Mr. Delmont. It was relaxing to say in the least, to be able to talk to another woman and cook. I was enjoying the beautiful day and cutting some meat for the roast we were preparing.

But...she mentioned my grandmother. And it was strange because I know I had a grandmother, but I don't know- if that makes any sense. It's as though the idea of having one was always there, but it never occurred to me until now to think about visiting her or trying to contact her. I don't even remember ever speaking to her as far as my mind can recall, and I thought I had gotten all my memories back. Mrs. Delmont said it was a slip of the tongue and she meant to say her own grandmother, but she looked so out of place when she tried to recover the sentence that the alarm bells went off in my head.

I know I had mentioned that it looks strange for Tony to be at the park alone, but not me. So I told him to stay and keep an eye on his parents while I headed over to sit and think, which is what I'm doing now. I can't...recall someone who I apparently knew. I'm not getting any headaches, so I don't think she's "off limits" or anything. But she might be blocked from my mind. I don't know why.

This is the first solid lead I've gotten in weeks, and I'm going to try and follow it. I'll talk to Tony about it when I get back, but for now I'm going to keep trying to remember anything about her before dinner time.

Take care of yourselves.


P.S.- As a side note, Ava and Reach, if I see you two fighting and because of your fighting your baby is hurt, I am going to be furious. This is your child and you two need to grow up and stop calling each other petty names. You now have a baby and you damn well better take care of that baby. Because if you lose's like losing your whole world.
I don't care about circumstances, feelings, and any arguments that happened in the past. That was the past- you can't change it. It's time to look forward and take on the future. Try and give your baby the best life it can possibly have. I still see you, Ava, as the younger sister I never had and you, Reach, as a friend; and I do not want to see you two at each others throats doing his job for him.

1 comment:

  1. I'll do anything Ava asks me to do to help her and our child. I still love her, Cathy, I really do. I would love to have a family with her. I want to marry her. But right now, that doesn't seem feasible, especially since she refuses to even speak civilly to me. So I'll do whatever I can for Ava and our child but if she's not willing to put effort into our relationship, then, I'm sorry, I can't. I don't have the energy for it any more.